Jan 01 2009

I start 2009 with A CROWN of A WINNER

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It was 00:00 sharp when I and my big family held a gathering in welcoming 2009. This is our annually ritual. I’ve been doing it for 23 years and still enjoy it so much rather being in a big crowd on the street. 

I thank God for this kinda gathering though all the run down of the gathering is some kind of boredom for some people. And it came to a time where I have to greet all of the family one by one and ask for apologize. It always started first by me, since I’m the young in the family who’s able to speak well, I mean the youngest is my 3 years old nephew but he can’t stay awake until 00:00. 

It’s easy to ask for apologize to the one you love and the one who’s close to you but it’s really different when you ask for apologize to the one who have made some kind of rudeness in your life and have told you many bad words and keep texting you cruel message, rite??? She was there and it was her first New Year’s eve celebration with my big family. Yeah, she’s an extended family of my family. She’s older than me and I have to come to her and ask for that apologize. First thought in my mind was; should I do this??? I’m not the bad person here, she is. I was thinking of only shake her hand then pass her without saying any words and that’s it… it won’t make any different, I thought. But somehow I remember bout my Pastor story. He was in a concert and he met someone who have ever hurt him, accidently in a concert. At the time my Pastor didn’t do anything else but EAT HIS PRIDE and forget about the past and came close to this person and hugged this person and ask for apologize. I quickly remembered this story. Somehow there’s a big desire inside me, a big courage to do the same thing as my Pastor did, a big compassion for her and a big change of my point of view in doing this apologize thing. I came to her and I shook her hand and I hugged her and I kissed her and I told her “Please, forgive all my wrong doings to you. Happy New Year!” Do you know how it feels??? RELIEVE, PEACE, FREE, VICTORY, GREAT HAPPINESS, BLESSED, OVERCOME. It’s all there at the same time in the same heart.

I came to my cousin’s room and told her; I JUST DID IT! Deep inside my heart I feel a bunch of happiness. I WIN!!! I’M THE WINNER! I HAVE OVERCAME THIS! Few weeks before, I asked God of how should I end this war. What should I do and how. I don’t enjoy this feeling cos I know it is just not right. And last night without saying much words He showed me how should I do it. Firstly, with a glimpse of my Pastor story in my head then He put the same compassion as He has in my heart and He gave me a big courage to do it. And I did. This is something I like most of having JESUS in my life. He usually not talk much in giving a direction, I mean not so often but He will only standing right beside me and show me the way to do the things that will please Him and the things that will lead me into life. 

Hmmm… how much I love to be an Overcomer and a friend of JESUS. Thank you JESUS for giving me a chance to be a winner before I end up 2008 and now I start 2009 with A CROWN of A WINNER.

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Dec 30 2008

2008 is a victory, 2009 will be a greater victory.

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It’s only by grace and mercy that I can go thru 2008.

I still remember the very first time I entered 2008 with a hope that I can go far from Jakarta. Start a new thing out of Jakarta in a better place with a higher quality of life and a dream that this new place is gonna be a new big shot in my life =) But somehow there’s something stop me to think those plans in the mid of May. Am I serious enough with those plans??? Am I ready to leave Jakarta and all the people inside??? Is it that urgent of being out of the city??? Do I get a right reason for me to leave the city??? How if I will miss important part when I had left the city??? All these matters were in my head when I was having an approval in my hand. I did really stand between two gaps that I have never expected to be. But I had to make a quick decision at the same time. After all considerations bout what I had to decide I answered NO for this opportunity. I had been in two different situation at the same time I felt sad for this decision but on the other hand I felt so relief. 

As the time gone by, I just realized why I should stay in Jakarta a bit longer. God is doing some thing big in Jakarta something we never imagine before, He moves so fast nowadays and I’m so grateful of being part of it. He do something greater than the previous issues such as blessing, healing and all the basic things. These issues are all good but that’s only the basic of Jesus people should have possessed. I sense that somehow He call out forth young generations to be on His move to sense Him more than before. It is just about the time until He reveal Himself in the movement. It is our decision whether we will join this new generation crowd or not, but one thing for sure He will not wait any longer to reveal and manifest Himself among the young generation. He will not wait.

So I will start 2009 with the promise that God has set for me, as He spoke many things in the late 2008 and all the covenants he has whispered one night to me and all the godly experiences during 2008. I won’t miss it Lord. Abide in His presence is where I belong to.

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